The Dance of Intuition and Planning

Transcript:

I just came back from town where I met a friend for a walk and then something nice to eat in a cafe and we had a lovely time and a nice chat.

On my way back I felt like I needed to record a podcast straight away again. I feel like this a lot these days.

I’m either going on a drive, going somewhere and I feel like I need to record a podcast episode. It feels really good. I’m not really sure actually what I want to talk about, but I was thinking about “conscious creation starts in the dark”.

Two days ago when I met my friend in her studio, Kerstin, and we spontaneously recorded another episode for our YouTube channel, we ended up talking about the sentence and that’s what I called the episode: Conscious Creation Starts in the Dark.

I love the title. I love the idea of this.

It suits the other episode I recorded about intuitive eating and living because that’s what it’s really about. You don’t know where you’re going, you don’t know what the next few steps will be. You might only know the first next step that you’re taking. So you’re kind of coming out of the darkness, taking one step, then taking the next step, the next action.

So that’s why I really like recording a podcast episode like this.

I like to just sit in silence. And see which words come out of my mouth. What’s the next thing I’m going to say?

I don’t really know, I don’t really have a plan, but funnily enough there’s always something that will come out when I’m calm and aware and if I slow down. I don’t need to have a huge plan. But then again, after recording the other episode on intuitive eating and living, I felt like I need to talk about the opposite as well.

The planning, the structure. Maybe it’s more of a masculine side.

While intuition and coming out of the darkness is more a feminine energy, I think having a plan and step by step checklist is maybe a bit more of a masculine energy. And both of them are important.

I don’t think one of them is better than the other. It’s just that in the time that we’re living in, in our world that the masculine energy is more favoured and getting things done, having a plan, these things are favoured more. So maybe we need a little bit more of this feminine energy of this intuition and taking steps out of the darkness.

Without knowing where it leads. But just having a feeling of this is the next step and this is the good thing to do.

Not really knowing why we’re taking this next step.

But I have been doing this over the last few days, maybe the last week, a lot. And I have to say I really love living life like this. Just taking one step at a time. Being open and receptive to whatever comes up next.

Being open and curious. Not having a preconceived idea about what is supposed to happen.

But then I wanted to talk a bit more about the planning and what I wanted to say is that I find planning and writing down my dreams and ideas also helpful because I set an intention.

So I have an idea of where I would like to go and what I would like to bring into my life.

And I write this down. And it’s like Kerstin was saying in our conversation, it’s like setting the rudder in a boat to go in a certain direction, having an intention. For me that’s really helpful because before I often felt like I could get lost in all the ideas that I have and I could lose focus.

And never arrive anywhere because I’m changing gears or I’m changing direction too often.

So if I sit down with a planner, like the planners that I made on self-care or monthly goal setting, it’s really helpful for me because I can sit down, become quiet and just set an intention.

What do I want to focus on in the next few days, in the next month, what are my goals? What is it actually that I want to bring into my life and what do I want to let go of?

And then, after I’ve done this, let go of it and then go back to the intuition. Go back to going moment by moment.

Sometimes maybe taking my plan and having a look at it, if I want to remember my direction, if I need to remember what are the important steps or the important parts or things that I wanted to go about.

And then let go again and just let myself flow from moment to moment. And I love this energy, I love the freedom that comes with it.

At the same time it feels like freedom and certainty because the next step is always the right step.

Whatever comes up in the next moment and when I feel like if I have to make a decision in the next moment and I feel, okay there is this option and this option and maybe a third option and I just feel into it, then I know what the right next thing to do is.

And if it’s a mistake, if it’s not the right next thing and it turns out to be wrong, that’s not even a problem either because it just helps me to fine-tune my intuition. It helps me to find out more about the thing and in the next moment maybe take a different step.

Or even experiment. Have more of a feeling of experimentation about the thing I want to do, not having to do it in a certain way, and that’s the only right way.

There’s more of an openness to it, like this.

And if I allow myself to make mistakes and take the wrong step and then readjust the rudder, it gives me a lot of certainty in some way because I can… it gives me more trust in myself.

And trust in my inner voice, that I always know what’s the right thing to do in any given moment.

At the moment I think I’m getting better at this all the time. I’m trying to really listen to my clues, to my inner guidance. I feel it’s telling me so many things.

And I couldn’t have planned this beforehand. So like if I sit down with my planners, I do think about what I would like to achieve or where I would like to go and what I would like to do, but I’m staying open to other possibilities. It doesn’t have to happen in a certain way.

There’s so many different ways how it could happen. I hope that makes sense.

Let me know if you have any questions about this or if this makes sense to you or not.

But just for myself I feel I’m really on a very magical path at the moment, which is even hard to describe with words. But it feels wonderful and I want more people to be able to have this.

So maybe let me know what you think about this, if this makes any sense to you.

Thanks for listening. Bye.